I PREG!!!

("I PREG!!!" reference from this amazing post: http://www.stfuparentsblog.com/post/16528378462/tease-reveal-preg-edition)

On Saturday, my husband and I drove up to see our brand new baby nephew, and it was just as wonderful and easy as I thought it would be. We both got to hold him and snuggle with him and look at his teeny tiny feet and itty bitty fingernails. And then later on that night, we drove over to bring some extra supplies to the new mom and dad, and I got to have a really nice one-on-one chat with my brother. He said that he knew this might be a little rough on me, but that he was so happy that we could be there to love on our nephew (and his older sister!) and that he knew we would be wonderful parents ourselves whenever it happens. I told him that visiting them had made me realize how much I already was at peace with everything that's happened, and that I knew our baby would get here one way or the other, and that I finally was really, really okay with being patient until that happened.  We gave each other a great big bear hug, and then my husband and I took off to head home.

On the way, we stopped by the store and I saw early result pregnancy tests on sale. I had been planning on waiting for a missed period to test, but I tossed a pack in my cart anyway. I really was at peace with everything, and ready to face the answer on the pee stick.

We got home, and I took it and placed it on the counter to wait for the results. I started reading one of my mom's magazines and got so engrossed in one of the articles, I actually forgot to check the stick. But when I did, there were two clear, beautiful lines.

My husband was waiting in our bedroom. He gave me a thumbs up with a questioning look. I nodded, grinning. "Ahh, I knew it!" he said, wrapping me up in a great big hug.

So, for now, I preg. I hope this is our rainbow baby, but I'm trying not to get too attached until our first ultrasound in three weeks. I know from experience there are a million ways this could go south, but... I actually feel really optimistic. I've been having a little bit of cramping today, and I know it's totally normal but it scares me anyway. But hopefully the storm has passed, and our rainbow is on its way.